What if?

What if?
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What if the world doesn't follow the rules that I was promised?
What if it leaves its tasks, its endless spinning, its track around the sun?

What if the land doesn't lie still?
What if it opens up and swallows me, without negotiation?

What if I attempt to help, but my efforts are in vain?
What if my time is ill spent?

What if life lets me down?
What if I never know what I want?

What if the sky doesn't lie still?
What If it opens up and swallows me up, without preamble?

What if god does not exist?
What if god does not care?

What I am too scared and say "what if" forever?

What if I never see you again?

What if: then?

What now?