I'm in full job hunting swing right now, by evidence of the soreness of my butt from sitting on it at this coffee shop for three hours straight. How is that for a run-on sentence? Hey, pretty good. I've been out of work for more than a month and in California for almost one. Today was spent looking around on the UCSF website. For the first time in long time I felt really excitement at the prospect of doing meaningful research. All the projects looked compelling: clinical pain management studies, stem cell research, neuro-degenerative disease research, etc. But my foot is not in the door, nor will it be with out a fair amount of elbow grease to moisten the senses of these scientist--they must realize I am AMAZING. Perhaps an over-active ego is my first mistake. Perhaps.
My one new year's (is that capitalized?) was to stop doubting myself. I intimated at a dinner on new years eve and everyone at the table said "Aww..". What, does no one else in this wide world doubt themselves? I'm obsessed with failure... I know that.
Tomorrow I'm going to get all dressed up and barge into UCSF offices all over the city, demanding position and handing out receipts for ass-woopings to all those deserving it (aka people who tell me anything I don't like).
Nikki put two away messages up, both containing lyrics from my songs!!! That makes me sooo happy... because I felt like I could only ever be the only one that would like such filth. HAHA, jk.
Later.
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