Download and listen.
What is the meaning of this?
somehow we crossed, our ways
[low]
you were raised on the grain, of plains
show me, oh show me the waves
gonna be a long time
till I find
oh the meaning of this...
Can I have one more day
with you
and maybe we two
we can grapple with perfection
tried to say, in my way
there's no one like you
I'll come to m
can you hurry if I asked you to
maybe in a long time
maybe in a long time
maybe in a long time we will find
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Miss River
What is the meaning of this?
somehow we crossed, our ways
[low]
you were raised on the grain of plains
show me, oh show me the way
It's gonna be a long time
till I find
oh the meaning of this
this encounter, strange.
rough but a beginning
somehow we crossed, our ways
[low]
you were raised on the grain of plains
show me, oh show me the way
It's gonna be a long time
till I find
oh the meaning of this
this encounter, strange.
rough but a beginning
Monday, July 17, 2006
The elder sister
I was fresh in my homesick
when you arrived that evening
your sister's smile, familiar
your shapely graceful demeanor
silver and hemp
were you ornaments
joy and vitality
your adornments
on me
you've claimed me with your touch
struck me right with a smile
as we shared childhood gems
the quick moving fog
rolled in.
creased: the dress you wore on your form
you did not care, you cast that aside
it fell over your frame
the sun blushing your shoulders
and I'll never be the same
and I told you so...
that night, doing maybe again
what you do to many
to me for I was there alone
but I kissed you, though in fearing:
you are flavored-minded, seasoned
particular in taste, would protest
You didn't
pleasure is the mode
and that I longed to elicit
your sighs of release
and the other signs
the smooth sheen of skin
all on your side, I worshiped you.
I don't mind.
all the moments in a handful of days
stirred my dormant heart
so I admitted to you, while we lay
"I've not met the likes of you"
your form, your presence, your gravity
but I have a feeling you, in your way
meet men like me
every-
day
when you arrived that evening
your sister's smile, familiar
your shapely graceful demeanor
silver and hemp
were you ornaments
joy and vitality
your adornments
on me
you've claimed me with your touch
struck me right with a smile
as we shared childhood gems
the quick moving fog
rolled in.
creased: the dress you wore on your form
you did not care, you cast that aside
it fell over your frame
the sun blushing your shoulders
and I'll never be the same
and I told you so...
that night, doing maybe again
what you do to many
to me for I was there alone
but I kissed you, though in fearing:
you are flavored-minded, seasoned
particular in taste, would protest
You didn't
pleasure is the mode
and that I longed to elicit
your sighs of release
and the other signs
the smooth sheen of skin
all on your side, I worshiped you.
I don't mind.
all the moments in a handful of days
stirred my dormant heart
so I admitted to you, while we lay
"I've not met the likes of you"
your form, your presence, your gravity
but I have a feeling you, in your way
meet men like me
every-
day
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
A new twist on an old favorite.
I found this pasted into some self-obsessed girl's myspace (Melissa Sumitra Royblog. Wow, shit. I couldn't resist.
THIS IS TO ALL MY GIRLS:
You need to find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
( What you need is a guy with a more diverse lexicon; "I want to fuck your ass.", would be replaced by the more diplomatic "Let's make love a 'new' way.", and so on...)
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
(I.e. someone who puts up with you being a cunt.)
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
(Say, a male, with no job, and an addiction to methamphetamines. Specify also if he should be in the same room, cause I'm sure there are plenty of guys watching you sleep/undress with high-powered lenses from across the street.)
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
(Oh, the one who is supremely condescending. What if he does this while telling you, even though he came home smelling of alcohol and 'another women', that you are over-reacting and you should just put down the paring knife)
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
(That is, your assless sweats, or the ones that cost him a truck load of cash.)
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
(To drag you away from your friends when you become drunk and verbally abusive.)
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
(I.e. the one you would never want because that kind of admiration makes you want to vomit. Wait, great way to lose weight, maybe you do want him.)
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."
("That's the one who lets me call her a whore in bed. I'm so proud.")
THIS IS TO ALL MY GIRLS:
You need to find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
( What you need is a guy with a more diverse lexicon; "I want to fuck your ass.", would be replaced by the more diplomatic "Let's make love a 'new' way.", and so on...)
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
(I.e. someone who puts up with you being a cunt.)
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
(Say, a male, with no job, and an addiction to methamphetamines. Specify also if he should be in the same room, cause I'm sure there are plenty of guys watching you sleep/undress with high-powered lenses from across the street.)
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
(Oh, the one who is supremely condescending. What if he does this while telling you, even though he came home smelling of alcohol and 'another women', that you are over-reacting and you should just put down the paring knife)
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
(That is, your assless sweats, or the ones that cost him a truck load of cash.)
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
(To drag you away from your friends when you become drunk and verbally abusive.)
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
(I.e. the one you would never want because that kind of admiration makes you want to vomit. Wait, great way to lose weight, maybe you do want him.)
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."
("That's the one who lets me call her a whore in bed. I'm so proud.")
Sunday, June 25, 2006
other Ocean
I come at the strangest of times
to commune with you, Ocean.
You are not the sea near my birthplace,
near wear my sister raises her youngesters.
But you know her because you are sister seas, you with all others, are one. One with the water in the sky and even that which is trapped in the land. I come to commune with you because I need not ask questionsof you. I need not ponder you, explain you; I don't require great deeds of you. Yourself, you hate me not, nor do you love me or favor me. There is no guilt in your voice, no pain in your song, no joy in the saline breeze.
I commune with you because I love you. You say what I long to here, what my mind needs to know: Ssshhhhh.....ssshhh
to commune with you, Ocean.
You are not the sea near my birthplace,
near wear my sister raises her youngesters.
But you know her because you are sister seas, you with all others, are one. One with the water in the sky and even that which is trapped in the land. I come to commune with you because I need not ask questionsof you. I need not ponder you, explain you; I don't require great deeds of you. Yourself, you hate me not, nor do you love me or favor me. There is no guilt in your voice, no pain in your song, no joy in the saline breeze.
I commune with you because I love you. You say what I long to here, what my mind needs to know: Ssshhhhh.....ssshhh
Friday, June 16, 2006
Cranberries
Oh, my life is changing ev'ryday
In ev'ry possible way.
And oh, my dreams,
It's never quiet as it seems,
Never quiet as it seems.
In ev'ry possible way.
And oh, my dreams,
It's never quiet as it seems,
Never quiet as it seems.
Saturday, June 03, 2006
remember this second, flood the feeling of Sun
I've got great news...
I sat and thought. I'm inside on a sunny day and I'm okay.
Realizing, as I was sitting here, that I never had a chance.
That my regret is all about nothing, and all I've been trying to make right
is gone.
Happy... i've not been this happy in so long.
I sat and thought. I'm inside on a sunny day and I'm okay.
Realizing, as I was sitting here, that I never had a chance.
That my regret is all about nothing, and all I've been trying to make right
is gone.
Happy... i've not been this happy in so long.
Monday, May 29, 2006
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Candle
The candle needs a shade
to light the way
trials and trails and roots in the way
it needs the shade.
to throw the light
in a helpful way
the light in the eyes and the praise still comes
the outline of arteries and veins
like the roots in the way
look left and right
and try to look down
there is a blanket on the ground
it's dull and orange and smells of pine
covers the natives and the poor
lime and bone, moss and snow
Light another candle, cause the way is lost
but the shade is all that's needed
the roots are so thick
and rise like bridge which under
feet are lodged
the candles falls out and down
catches fire to the ground
catches fire all around...
to light the way
trials and trails and roots in the way
it needs the shade.
to throw the light
in a helpful way
the light in the eyes and the praise still comes
the outline of arteries and veins
like the roots in the way
look left and right
and try to look down
there is a blanket on the ground
it's dull and orange and smells of pine
covers the natives and the poor
lime and bone, moss and snow
Light another candle, cause the way is lost
but the shade is all that's needed
the roots are so thick
and rise like bridge which under
feet are lodged
the candles falls out and down
catches fire to the ground
catches fire all around...
Thursday, May 04, 2006
My sister
If I was never here, what if?
and my foundation is dirt and dank.
I remember so little, sister.
Did you go to prom, did anyone take pictures?
Are they fading in the ground?
Did anyone ever tell you that you are beautiful?
Did anyone tell you that you are loved?
You are so easy to cut to the core, so easily ignored. So easily dismissed and disgraced. But you will always have grace, through my eyes.
I've never told you. I should've told you.
I'm sorry.
and my foundation is dirt and dank.
I remember so little, sister.
Did you go to prom, did anyone take pictures?
Are they fading in the ground?
Did anyone ever tell you that you are beautiful?
Did anyone tell you that you are loved?
You are so easy to cut to the core, so easily ignored. So easily dismissed and disgraced. But you will always have grace, through my eyes.
I've never told you. I should've told you.
I'm sorry.
Monday, May 01, 2006
Every Life.
Every life is beautiful.
Every life is tragic.
Your life is a beauty.
Your life is a tragedy.
What are you so happy about?
What are you complaining about?
You've not heard a word I've said.
Every life is tragic.
Your life is a beauty.
Your life is a tragedy.
What are you so happy about?
What are you complaining about?
You've not heard a word I've said.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
This is what i've learnt
1) don't expect the wound to miss the knife.
2) loneliness is a drill.
3) the mind is a holding tank. sometimes needs patching, sometimes becomes full, often time empty.
4) loneliness is a sharp drill
5) the tank's sides are weak
6) you can't look at the content all at once.
or you'll drown by the sight of it.
As an act of contrition, this posted was edited.
Enjoy the Spring.
I like this song
The days go on, the lights go off and on
And nothing really matters when you're gone
If you think that you feel nothing at all
If you don't (If you don't)
Then you don't (No, you won't)
If you won't
Then you won't
And I will
Then I will
Dreams.
Maybe God thought I was having a shortage of regret in the waking hours so he gave me an ENTIRE night filled with dreams on the subject.
The first dream involved no regret, but did involve 3 of 4 of my new roommates. I don't remember much from the dream accept one of my roommates was doubled... The scene just before I awoke was particularlly distrubing. She had come in from outside with acute hypothermia. We are talking dream over-rought acute; her back was frozen about the ribs. I remember picking her off the couch, stepping forward with her, then ploughing into the coffee table, dropping her in slow motion. In my dream one of my roommates screams "MAAAAAAAAAATTTTT....". As I woke the Ts blended with the hissing sound of a city bus going by on the street. For a moment they were one in the same sound. Severely unsettling.
So I saw that film last night. Without going into a huge description/review, it was about this period in famous film-maker Cazeh Zehedi's (make "A Waking Life") life when he was habitually sexing(ha) prostitutes while in relationships.
Some of the things he would say to his significant others to justify his desires, needs were distinctly familiar. I became somewhat nervous during the movie--well, I had to pee throughout the entire thing.
My other dream was entirely a scenario of recognition that I had behaved much like Cazeh with respect to my relationship with Samantha. I'm not going to go into much detail. But I do want to mention that this one scene
The first dream involved no regret, but did involve 3 of 4 of my new roommates. I don't remember much from the dream accept one of my roommates was doubled... The scene just before I awoke was particularlly distrubing. She had come in from outside with acute hypothermia. We are talking dream over-rought acute; her back was frozen about the ribs. I remember picking her off the couch, stepping forward with her, then ploughing into the coffee table, dropping her in slow motion. In my dream one of my roommates screams "MAAAAAAAAAATTTTT....". As I woke the Ts blended with the hissing sound of a city bus going by on the street. For a moment they were one in the same sound. Severely unsettling.
So I saw that film last night. Without going into a huge description/review, it was about this period in famous film-maker Cazeh Zehedi's (make "A Waking Life") life when he was habitually sexing(ha) prostitutes while in relationships.
Some of the things he would say to his significant others to justify his desires, needs were distinctly familiar. I became somewhat nervous during the movie--well, I had to pee throughout the entire thing.
My other dream was entirely a scenario of recognition that I had behaved much like Cazeh with respect to my relationship with Samantha. I'm not going to go into much detail. But I do want to mention that this one scene
Monday, April 24, 2006
It's more about
I just saw an independent film at the Balboa Theater called "I am a sex addict" by the guy who directed "A waking life"
Really, really funny, artful and, in the end, touching.
I'm glad to see people with vices who aren't ashamed to document them. It is difficult; you can take it to the grave.
I wrote this at the beach on 4/20/06:
When I was young I faced east
when the sun was low it rose
rose above the Atlantic
and all the submerged histories
I knew nothing of
Now,here
The sun is low in the west, sinking
into the Pacific, or a slight sooner,
clouds make the western wall
The sun, in its ancient rung, has climbed from my birthplace
The place my parents
dipped my timid toes in the Icy brine
for the first time.
It's more about a life of first times, changes and impressions.
It's more about saying what you mean if you mean it
showing all your skin to the ones you want to keep
and loving completely the ones in your skin
It's more about living life,
than life.
Really, really funny, artful and, in the end, touching.
I'm glad to see people with vices who aren't ashamed to document them. It is difficult; you can take it to the grave.
I wrote this at the beach on 4/20/06:
When I was young I faced east
when the sun was low it rose
rose above the Atlantic
and all the submerged histories
I knew nothing of
Now,here
The sun is low in the west, sinking
into the Pacific, or a slight sooner,
clouds make the western wall
The sun, in its ancient rung, has climbed from my birthplace
The place my parents
dipped my timid toes in the Icy brine
for the first time.
It's more about a life of first times, changes and impressions.
It's more about saying what you mean if you mean it
showing all your skin to the ones you want to keep
and loving completely the ones in your skin
It's more about living life,
than life.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
California Girl
I met this girl last night.
She is from a town near Eureka (Nor Cal).
She is beautiful. Her eyes are brown, her smile is unforgettable. She has two tattoos, one of a lion on her lower back and a jasmine flower on her left hip. She is a Leo, born August 5.
I am supposed to call her this week, maybe hang out.
At the end of the night, as she was getting into the cab, she kissed me on the lips, not the cheek, but the lips.
I hope I get to know her, and if she ever reads this, then she'll know I was thinking about her all day.
She is from a town near Eureka (Nor Cal).
She is beautiful. Her eyes are brown, her smile is unforgettable. She has two tattoos, one of a lion on her lower back and a jasmine flower on her left hip. She is a Leo, born August 5.
I am supposed to call her this week, maybe hang out.
At the end of the night, as she was getting into the cab, she kissed me on the lips, not the cheek, but the lips.
I hope I get to know her, and if she ever reads this, then she'll know I was thinking about her all day.
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Sunday, April 16, 2006
I guess I'm the same everywhere
There is something familiar about this place,
when I close my eyes...
I could be anywhere, but I'm the same.
Location does not change me. The miles have not morphed me,
into a world weary sun, the son is the same and the days are mostly August dust.
And though I trace long lines across the place, and I the mountains become plains
I'm feeling very much the same.
Judging the past and predicting the future, as if I've been there before. Cause, honestly, this is feeling like the past, therefore the future will feel like... So I know what's in store.
The end is somewhere in there too. So maybe I should do more, be more, love more, talk more, think more, write more, appreciate more, fix more, see more, and run more many many miles. Maybe I'll feel different, and not be the same, or accept my "same" or something, before I go.
Maybe I'll create something to leave behind, cause where I'm going I cannot return. And it is sad, cause I don't think I'll see you there--I hardly knew you in life. But maybe when I travel the distance that has no measure, we can sit and talk?
Cause I am what you'll leave behind. And maybe we just sleep. Then I'll never know. Never change. Be the same while I sleep forever.
Maybe I we should sit near the lake and talk in the sun soon. Cause your head is silver, life is making your heart tired. You can only expect it to toil for so long.
Toil on.
And I'll be here, far away. The same.
when I close my eyes...
I could be anywhere, but I'm the same.
Location does not change me. The miles have not morphed me,
into a world weary sun, the son is the same and the days are mostly August dust.
And though I trace long lines across the place, and I the mountains become plains
I'm feeling very much the same.
Judging the past and predicting the future, as if I've been there before. Cause, honestly, this is feeling like the past, therefore the future will feel like... So I know what's in store.
The end is somewhere in there too. So maybe I should do more, be more, love more, talk more, think more, write more, appreciate more, fix more, see more, and run more many many miles. Maybe I'll feel different, and not be the same, or accept my "same" or something, before I go.
Maybe I'll create something to leave behind, cause where I'm going I cannot return. And it is sad, cause I don't think I'll see you there--I hardly knew you in life. But maybe when I travel the distance that has no measure, we can sit and talk?
Cause I am what you'll leave behind. And maybe we just sleep. Then I'll never know. Never change. Be the same while I sleep forever.
Maybe I we should sit near the lake and talk in the sun soon. Cause your head is silver, life is making your heart tired. You can only expect it to toil for so long.
Toil on.
And I'll be here, far away. The same.
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